So um, quick little news flash. I'm going to BYU.
Also, I got accepted into the Flute Studio at the School of Music. What??
Here's the thing. This has been such a big deal to me for such a long time that I can't believe it's actually here. Honestly, I don't think I've quite caught up with it yet. How is it humanly possible that I've come this far in such a short time? And how am I going to even measure up to being in such a fantastic program? I feel vastly not qualified and a little bit confused about how this even happened.
However, I think I've reached a conclusion about it. Number one, I'm scared out of my wits. I'm so intimidated--next year is going to be a world of change. But I'm excited too! Number two, I'm not even sure this is what I want to do with my life. Is music really it? What about English? I want to do that too! But as long as I have a chance at trying music, I'm going to give it my best shot.
That seems to be the case with a lot of things in my life lately....everything is a bit confusing and a lot of things are pretty freakin' scary. I was talking to a couple of friends during 7th today about life--growing up and all the tremendous changes that we're dealing with. We're losing friends, growing apart, going to college, planning our futures, and trying to figure out who we're going to be. At times, the prospect seems pretty bleak. Sometimes I might even call it terrifying. But I've come to realize that if you spend your life hanging out on the sidelines, you're going to miss the whole game. So I'll jump in with both feet and love what I'm doing and be where I am. I'll learn all sorts of things and meet all sorts of people, and it will be fabulous! I'll work my hardest and see where it takes me; and that's a good place to start.
Holli & Jordan
6 months ago